If you could see through me...

If you could see through me you'd find that in darkness I lie
and through shadows I walk,
that there was no peace
until I saw you.
If you could see through me you'd realize I have no place where I belong,
that there's no light for me beyond your eyes,
that there are not words
because there's only you.
You'd see that all my chances are gone
'though they never came,
how I spend my days in agony
and my nights in pain.
You'd find that I know we're not meant to be together
but neither I was meant to think you the way I do,
that 'though we chase different horizons, live in two worlds apart
still it only took a second to long you the rest of my hollow life.
If you could see how long I've been running, you'd realize that there's no place to hide
'cause you own every second I breathe,
you'd learn that I'm not naive, nor my reason is deceived
but neither I could deny that you're the light that blinds me from what's real.
If you could see through me
you'd understand that I know something's wrong,
'cause every time I talk, you don't answer;
every time I walk, you don't follow;
'cause you can't see when I'm looking at you
nor feel me when I touch your face...
But then you'd realize that I know your eyes
and the shape of you lips,
that without reaching me, your hands shape my will
and your voice is the heaven where I dream.
You'd know that I could live from those words you haven't spoken
and follow your scent 'till the end of the world,
that I could die from seeing you crying
or kill just to hear your call.
Knowing all this tell me, how can I not love you?
If you're the only secret I call my own,
the only link to my inocense,
the ghost that hounts me by day
and the angel that ease my devils by night.
How could I not reject them?
if there's not joy outside your glory,
if there's not hope beyond your heart,
if there's not desired future if you're not within the sight.
How could I not be alone?
if every time they come close you're not among them,
if those arms that urge to hold me are not yours,
if there's no diamond I value most than your eyes.
So there I am, longing a dream,
betting my life to the impossible
even when I know that one day I won't be able to wait any longer
and that then I'll have to choose someone, anyone, but the one I love,
'cause I know that the day will come when reality as a shadow will eclipse me
and I'll have to renounce to the one that never could see through me and yet conquered,
to the one that never knew of my hopes and yet made me believe,
I'll have to finally take my eyes from the heavens,
I'll finally have to let you go.