Here we go again...

From all the times I've been strong and decided there's allways one where I follow my heart no matter the consecuences, and it usually involves him...

It just took one "Hello" to make me tremble like a leave on a storm, and there I was, saying yes where I should have said no. I don't regret it though-for now- and I feel happy and liberated, as if a huge weight has left my heart.

I'm his friend, so he sais, and somehow I feel disapointed but also relieved because that means I already won a place he never gave before and I bought a little more length to our time together, whatever short it might be.

I am pathetic, but I can't expect much form myself for now since I seem to be in love; I am thankful to life for the gift although I know I should be throwing punches for sending him back when I was ready to get over him. Once more I'm determined to make the most of it, no matter who opposes and who disaproves just because I love him, just because being bold seems to help me to survive when he's gone. Yes, I used to avoid this moments because they're evil when they're gone, but they're meaner when they don't happen, so here I go...again.