Usually I'm not a "no" woman. Of course I know how to say no when the ocassion calls for it, but when it comes to the object of my affection (or obsession I must say) I rarely find the voice to speak that elusive word, or any other that might cause his distance, for that matter.
Through this last challenging days, however, things feel different. The bell rang for me the moment he lacked any kind of consideration or sign of affection on my birthday, despite the fact I even droped thousands of hints the week before. You see, I know what I feel about him and how things have been going, but I'm supposed to be his best friend, his only friend, so just because of that I was expecting some kind of notice of my existance, a small detail...jeez! even a text message would have suffice, but that was my mistake, because I already know he's nothing but an empty chair, a noshow, a complete and round disappointment.
So the days, and days...and days, passed and my awarness grew. So did the notion of having enough of him already and the necessity of kicking him away of my life...And then, just when I was almost sure it was the end of it, he decides to let me know he's still alive in the unpersonal, cocky, selfish way he always does. Did he apologize? No. Did he tried to make it up to me? No. Did he even mention the fact that he screwed up? No! He remained oblivious! And that was it.
See, for the first time I'm tired, really tired, and bored and angry, because these things never happen to me, and here I am, giving him all the chances to do things exactly the way I do not need them; while I bury myself in denial and forgiveness, for lacking the strength to accept that he is a jerk, and deserves to be treated as one and be send to hell, along with his damn appeal and his hidden (and currently unknown) agenda.
I had just enough of his ways. I am a strong, independent woman so I cannot and will not keep living as a frightened insecure teenager. Thanks to him the bitch is back...Long live the bitch!
So I'm sorry but whatever his cute, lying face has to ask, the answer is: NO...
He had it coming...
