Today

I'm learning trust,
I'm learning self control,
I'm learning patience,
so one day,
may be one day,
I can learn love.

I deserve better

Sometimes we are our worst enemies.

Sometimes, even not completely aware of how, we destroy the very thing we're fighting to protect.

Sometimes the battles to win are the ones happening within.

I let my past, my fear and my insecurities overcome me, pushing things to a point where they had to burst.

I'm trembling, I'm burning inside with anger, and sadness, and solitude; I can barely breathe and all I want, all I can think and pray for is a chance to get him back...the very thing I should run away from because if I get him, I loose myself.

I messed it up, that's all I can see, and then the world goes and shows me that he should have stand by me, that he should have defended me and trusted me...and so it comes clear: he had neglected me long before this crisis, he lifted me to heaven just to toss me on hell, he deserves not my pain, nor my guilt, and much less a place on my heart.

So I try to hold on to that and remember myself to look up, to lift my chin with pride and dignity and take strong steps on moving on, to ignore my heartache and keep going, to believe with all my soul that what's ought to happen, will happen, and I can do much better.

Yes Sr, I deserve better...

 

 

This is the end,

hold your breath and count to ten,

feel the earth move and then

hear my heart burts again

for this is the end...

Let the skyfall

when it crumbles

we will stand tall

and face it all together

as sky falls...