Those decisive moments are never easy and always end changing you but hopefully, if you face them with your chin up and your whole heart, you get through them triumphant, with one more battle tale to share after every scar.
With so much love but also so much pain and disappointment left behind to look back is not an option anymore so you must step forward, even if it means to grow your wings as you fall into the abbism.
But make no mistake, from the stabs on the back those wings do grow and the soul does heal; pain becomes wisdom and tears thicken your will, so as the phenix we rise and rise again, "until lambs become lions", until you master the rules, until you beat them at their game.